Quick Sand

Love Can’t Hide

Tears on my pillow keep falling

And I’m crying over you.

How long will the time last before my heart

Is blessed to see the day I’m back with you?

See I’m yearning for you baby, 

Constantly I’m reminscing

Always think bout the things we used to do.

Am I wrong for love that’s been lost and found?

Looking for someone to make the claim

Why am I an example of heart turned cold?

Looking for someone to take the blame.

Reflections of your silhouette at the corners of my bed

I try to close my eyes and go to sleep, still I see you in my dreams.

Are my dreams of love a mirage of paradise?

As the weeks turn to months,

And so many sleepless nights.

For the day I pray my tears will wipe away

You’ll hold me in your loving arms always.

She. Her. Me.

Have you ever looked at someone and said, “wow s/he has it all!” ?  I was that person admiring other’s lives and wanting to live their life and not my own, not taking into consideration that I do not know their daily struggle, bc everyone has a struggle.  You never know what someone is going through in their life, within themselves, within their families, within their relationships, within their world.  Every guy I meet asks me, why don’t you smile ?  And the answer to that is more complicated than anyone could ever imagine.  My struggle goes deep within myself.  The fact that my self esteem and security has been in the soles of my shoes for the past 2-3 years of my life has made life harder than I could’ve ever imagine.  The fact that I’ve been a puppet to some people who’ve taken advantage over me over and over and over again has made life harder than I’ve could’ve ever imagined.  The fact that I’ve been living in a place that I completely despise for almost a year has made life harder than I could’ve ever imagined.  But as a Christian, I know that God makes no mistakes.  I know that everything I’ve gone through is for a reason and I know that it makes me stronger.  The fact that I can say that TODAY, I am honestly becoming happy with myself is a blessing.  I now know that I am the most important person in my world.  And now that I love myself genuinely, I can love others genuinely as well.   I know my struggle isn’t over yet, but it gets easier and easier the more I grow closer to God.

Every no and then, a girl needs to vent. :)